潇洒与无情。。。

很多人都认为我很潇洒，也有很多人认为我很无情。 潇洒与无情， 到底是哪一个，要看你是从哪一个角度看。

有一些人认为我不应该和他分手，最不应该的是在和他分手以后感到松了一口气。 他们认为我应该感到非常难过，非常不开心。可是我没有，所以他们认为我很无情。 但也有很多人认为我这是叫做潇洒。 因为很少人可以在感情上面那得起放得下，而我做到了。

我潇洒吗？是吧，但是我希望他也是。

Falling in love with the author... ...

My friend told me that I fell in love with the author... the author is now my ex-BF. He becomes the past just a wk ago, as I realises that I love the author but not the real person. I realised that as a person who loves to read and write, I does tends to fall in love the the writer....alot.

Learnt one impt lesson thou, "Never assume a person's personality by the things they wrote abt themselves and the way they seems to be in letters they wrote". Although I knew Gus for quite awhile as a real person but we haven really been together before. Emails is the way the closer relationship begans, and as it goes I thought he is the one....but of course... it is the author I love as when I really get together with him in real person I found that I can't link much of him to the original author that I knew n like... Resulting of course to the short-lived relationship.

My fault? His fault? Mine probably, as I shouldn't have fall in love with the author. :P

Never regreted this relationship thou, at least learnt something from it and know myself better. No regrets...

haha....okie....start reminding me how stupid I am, come on...I know u wanna press that comment link.... :P

How does Rumbling comes abt...

rum·ble ( P )
v. rum·bled, rum·bling, rum·bles
Defination: To make a deep, long, rolling sound. To move or proceed with a deep, long, rolling sound.

Always uses this world to describe talking sense or nonsensicals...but never really know wat it meant or whether it exist.

Reading a fanfiction suddenly make me realise where I learn abt this word....haha from the story. The author loves to use rambling as a form of talking to oneself or talking when the person they are talking to is not really listening....haha...

hmm.....thus I use random rumblings as my blog title.....as I'm just randoming saying alot of things with no idea whether anyone will read all the nonsense I write.

Worth of Life

What is the worth of life? Who determind the worth of one's life? You? Me? God? No one?

For human, the worth of one's life is determined by oneself. How much you think you worth??
I worth everything I live for and more, I worth my love and no one can replace me. I can do anything for myself because of that, I love myself too much...at least some people think I do.
There are people who thinks that they worth nothing or they cannot determine their worth themselves, those people are the ones that never love themselves as much as they should. Are you one of them?

What about other living things apart from humans? How much they worth? Most of their worth is now determined by humans isn't it... which animals are more precious then the others. Which animal to save and which animal to destroy. The worth of an animal can never compare to the worth of a human. Thou there are people who thinks that life of other animals is more precious than of human.

There is once I asked one of my friend of will she kills off her dog if not eat it during the time of crisis, whereby food is not enough. She insist that she will not, and will rather die to keep the animal alive. When I ask her if only one can live? Not surprisingly she will die for her dog. Believe her?? I did not, not really... ... What abt you?

Being in Life science trade, the number of lives I took is uncountable. Thou non will say anything and non will say it is not right when I told them 99.9% of them are fishes. Reason...most probably because they can't make any sound like other animals can, they look stupid and behave un-intelligently in our eyes? Even if I tell them I killed a couple of rats/mices, most of them will still feel alright...even I think so. Yesterday thou I went to terminate some rabbits...the first time I done it...and it does not feel alright anymore...and most will tell me that too. Why? Because they appear intelligent, they can make a sound...they cry and they'll feel scared...they are higher mammals and is not our staple food source? I'm sad to take theirs but I have to do that. But I'll try to make sure they don't die in vain.

But isn't it unfair to the fishes? To the rats? To every other animals we killed like ants...mosquitoes...that cross our way? To all the animals that we eat, like chicken, cow, pigs?

In buddism, every life is a life no matter what their body looks like. We shouldn't take life purposely, we should celebrate evey life that born into this world and mourn for every life that pass into the other world.

Still, most humans are selfish like me. The most impt life is mine...

Boring life?

Day after day, We all went thru the routine of life ...wake up...go to work...go home...how more routine can one's life gets??

Ways are thought of to make everyday different and exciting for myself so I would not feel too bored and cannot stay put anymore.

Meeting friends, having weird hobbies, read, have some sports etcs... life is only boring when you don't do something to alter the routine. It might results to less sleep and rest but it is more fun this way.

k, for example of this wk activities...Mon, went back home early to play with the PDA I borrowed from my sister....hehe...does not wanna return her now...:P Then tues I went dinner with Gus, my BF. Wednesday I went shopping for housewarming gift with some friends from poly. Today which is thurs, I'm goin yoga with my sis and dinner/supper with her too. Tml, goin to catch a movie with some other friends from Uni and Gus. Sat, goin out with Gus in the afternoon and then housewarming dinner @ friend's place. Sunday goin aunt's place to celebrate the 1mth old of my cousin. haha...everyday is fun, but I did not have the time to catch CSIa again 4 3 wks in a row...think I better get the DVD....