Update on my personality
People who love astrology, don't forget that I am a very typical Gemini. I am smart, maybe not in study but definitely street. I have a strong personality if not two or more strong personalities. I can be both Devilish and Angelic depending on the situation that requires them.
I do have a temper although I have more control over them now and it is harder to make me really angry then it is 5 yrs ago. I will tolerate people I love but will not tolerate people who I deem not deserving. When I'm angry, everyone will know. Especially the one that makes me angry. You should ask my younger sister how angry I can be.
I do not live in the castle in the clouds. Logic, realistic and truth is what I live in and for. Although I like to be a perfectionist in many things I do, I am very logical and realistic on what I should do. Thus if I cannot achieve my objective perfectly, I'm still okie if I acheive my objective logically and realistically.
I have good People relationship skills as I love to talk to people, adsorb and understand all their knowledges. I also believes people have to behaves differently and love the challenge of meeting new people with new thinking. I love to understands people and try to work with them and not against them, as we all have different skills and have to work together to have really gd results.
The things I wrote abt myself in friendster which many of my friends agrees on is:
"I'm someone who u may hate n love at the same
time...especially true for some of my friends...wahahaha
Look sleepy all the time, unless the topic of interest is
wat I like"
I am a very normal, down to earth and sometimes innocent looking girl with a very weird thinking. People always got fooled by me when they judge me by the look, I didn't do it purposely but it always happen. People who thinks that I'm conservative and traditional in thinking always get the biggest shock.
Heartless is what some of my friends deem me, in terms of how I handle my past relationship. I'm just doing what I've been doin, drawing a line. I love my family, I love my BF, I love my friends...but if all ranks together I love myself the most.
I love myself so much that some of my friends thinks that it is a kind of illness. hahaha... But just because I love myself, I do not cheat myself, pretend to myself, hurt myself. Whether intentionally or unintentionally, except for the love of bitting things including my hands....:P. If I found myself in a situation that hurts me alot and I really couldn't find ways to stop hurting myself and make myself real unhappy then the only way for me is to walk away from the hurt. That includes...job...hobby...and relationship. If I've tried and failed after a few attempts to find a way ard the hurt while keeping the situation, I will just eliminates it from my life. You can call me a coward for running away, but if that is the only way to save myself then I will.
I can't be control and don't like to be control by others, no one can. Except now maybe my elder sister whom hav certain degree of control over me from young...by one way or another and my younger sister who love to excercise guilt control on me to make me do something for her or give her something. Just because they are my sisters and I love them very much and I choose to give them the right as I know they love me too and will do anything for me even if they don't think it is right.
The one whom have full control over myself is me, anyone else whom believes in having the ability to control me can get out of their illusion now. Having the ability to put an idea into my head does not mean that you have the control. Having the ability to make me feel that you are important to me does not put the control in your hands.
A friend once told me that if someone trys to control me, I'll probably turn and run. haha....hmm...maybe it is true.
Love my freedom, this probably adds on to the reason why I don't like to be control. As freedom for me is a very impt thing. Not talking abt freedom to kill...but freedom to think and act on the things that I love to do.
I always felt trapped in , caged up and burden down... flying is what I want to do. Freedom is what I seeks, truth is in the horizon.



